Having spent a week out East with top experts in the 'traumonology" field, oh yes there is one, I came away with many feelings, which in turn are really new beliefs!
First and most important for no one but me...
1. I DO know what I am doing!
and then...
2. The so called experts don't have a clue, and that degree they have...hmmmm is nice but doesn't say a whole lot about getting to the real answers.
Maybe I'm being harsh. Oh ok, I am. I know it. I'm being judgmental and opinionated and narrow. AND it's because these experts with the funding and the degrees and the research don't have any answers about actually relieving trauma. They are studying it, revealing it, and so are validating it. But relieving it? Take a pill.
Maybe it's because they haven't experienced trauma themselves?
They have theories. They then present those theories. Their degrees get them funding and then they peddle it as a validated conclusion. I get why pharmacology has so swept the field and the market. The own the money, and the money controls just how you write up your proposal to get that grant. It might not be what you want to do, but by damn you have to eat too. And a grant gets you 2-5 years of funding. Ok so it's not what you had in mind, but it's money. Everyone sighs.
I watched credentialed medical take umbridge with the upstarts that think they have found solutions. How dare they? WE have 20 years of science behind us. But not solutions. They can tell you what is happening, where it is happening and what it does to us, but not how to relieve it. And well meaning 'healers' say over and over 'but what about the energetic body' to which biochemists said 'we can't measure it-I do science." So why are they so threatened by solutions?
Why indeed.
A new bright and shiny toy in the sandbox might just take away the attention, and funding. No one wants to lose their funding. Especially not now. No one really wants a solution as long as we can wring our hands and discuss the problem 'again'. Hmmmm
I felt like a country girl being taken to the Queen's court and watching all the backbiting and under currents without being connected to it. Why would one want to take that on? Validity? Vindication? Applause? Oh please. A pipe-dream (and I do mean the good smoke kinda dream)
All very complicated and very treacherous. A wrong word to the wrong person and off with your head! Tip toe through the academic funding world. I see why so many good people don't survive that climate and why the ones that do must have a strong ego and drive, and quite possibly a bit of larceny in their soul. And a big dash of schmoozability in their pocket.
When do we say 'done' and move to solution sets? See, talking about 'the problem' gets you more understanding at the conscious level, but it doesn't relieve the feelings and trauma state at the subconscious and unconscious levels. And all that conscious processing-validates that you really do have a right to feel the way you do, which makes it more real, not less.
In other words, we are feeding the wrong wolf.